Dazai never stopped wanting to die, but he chose to live. He chose to live the life that Odasaku could not, because he could do nothing else for him.
That pact was never needed in the fake reality that he hails from, where he could instead see the painting that would be completed by his hand, a colorful painting made with watercolors.
There was no need to keep on living in that world when the other had given him permission to die.
He waited for that moment for so long, and yet... ]
I...
[ For once, he finds himself at a loss for words. The cracks form in his expression, and his lower lip quivers just slightly. Dazai lifts his hands, the tips of his fingers tracing along the hand on his face before finally resting his hand over it. It's warm, and it's real, and it's more than he would ever allow himself to hope for. ]
I wanted to see you again. I wanted to see you again, even if it was only one more time...
[ Just one more time, but that's only a lie that he tells both of them, because it wouldn't be enough; there would never be enough time.
But he did so much, he endured so much, for just one more time. It was worth it.
He breathes out, finishing that thought with what one should at times like this, ]
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Dazai never stopped wanting to die, but he chose to live. He chose to live the life that Odasaku could not, because he could do nothing else for him.
That pact was never needed in the fake reality that he hails from, where he could instead see the painting that would be completed by his hand, a colorful painting made with watercolors.
There was no need to keep on living in that world when the other had given him permission to die.
He waited for that moment for so long, and yet... ]
I...
[ For once, he finds himself at a loss for words. The cracks form in his expression, and his lower lip quivers just slightly. Dazai lifts his hands, the tips of his fingers tracing along the hand on his face before finally resting his hand over it. It's warm, and it's real, and it's more than he would ever allow himself to hope for. ]
I wanted to see you again. I wanted to see you again, even if it was only one more time...
[ Just one more time, but that's only a lie that he tells both of them, because it wouldn't be enough; there would never be enough time.
But he did so much, he endured so much, for just one more time. It was worth it.
He breathes out, finishing that thought with what one should at times like this, ]
Welcome back, Odasaku...