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( closed to @luck ) your turn to die: sou hiyori
With varying vanities, from every part, they shift the moving toyshop of their heart.
With varying vanities, from every part, they shift the moving toyshop of their heart.
[ To say it had felt like he was on fire the first time he awoke would be a severe understatement. It was as though every neuron was firing off pain signals, an agonizing pain in his arm, running down his entire torso, in his thighs, everywhere. It had been blinding to the point where the only thing that saved him was the quick sedation that was administered once he was found. It's fortunate for him that the damage was minimal, and despite his coughing up blood there was no immediate need for concern.
He's awake again at last, just in time for the nurse to finish with him - clean linens that he needed to be transferred for, a clean body from a sponge bath, a clean gown... He can almost pass as presentable. The nurse has stepped out for a few moments, to get rid of al the filthy rags and everything else, but he doesn't doubt that she'll be back to do her final inspection and to scold him for his recklessness. He places a and over his mouth, yawning.
It should be like a kid waiting to be scolded, but instead he just seems tired from the analgesia that steadily drips through his IV once more. ]
Are you still here? Nagito... ♥
[ They're married, so he should get to use his first name. Did they already have a conversation about that? He can't remember very well, but more importantly, he hasn't changed his mind on what should be. ]
He's awake again at last, just in time for the nurse to finish with him - clean linens that he needed to be transferred for, a clean body from a sponge bath, a clean gown... He can almost pass as presentable. The nurse has stepped out for a few moments, to get rid of al the filthy rags and everything else, but he doesn't doubt that she'll be back to do her final inspection and to scold him for his recklessness. He places a and over his mouth, yawning.
It should be like a kid waiting to be scolded, but instead he just seems tired from the analgesia that steadily drips through his IV once more. ]
Are you still here? Nagito... ♥
[ They're married, so he should get to use his first name. Did they already have a conversation about that? He can't remember very well, but more importantly, he hasn't changed his mind on what should be. ]
Edited 2022-04-17 09:23 (UTC)
[ It doesn't occur to him that the reason he isn't received a response is the way he addresses his husband. Hiyori instead comes to the far more reasonable conclusion that he had simply been discharged already, as it would be easy enough to force his way out the door. How inconsiderate of him to leave without giving a kiss goodbye... Then again, perhaps he had, and he had simply forgotten it in his drug induced haze.
Whatever the circumstances might have been, a quick scan of the room is all that he needs to confirm that Komaeda isn't present at this time, and so he lets out a little sigh before settling back. He'll be scolded, but he's hardly in any state to understand the problem with his actions, and his dim awareness isn't allowing him to process the thick smell in the air that had no doubt assaulted the nurse upon entering. Really, he's not aware of very much at all right now. The drugs he's on are heavy, corroding his mind and leaving him heavy, but even without that he injuries he's sustained sap all of his energy day and night.
...
...
He's already dozing off again. ]
Whatever the circumstances might have been, a quick scan of the room is all that he needs to confirm that Komaeda isn't present at this time, and so he lets out a little sigh before settling back. He'll be scolded, but he's hardly in any state to understand the problem with his actions, and his dim awareness isn't allowing him to process the thick smell in the air that had no doubt assaulted the nurse upon entering. Really, he's not aware of very much at all right now. The drugs he's on are heavy, corroding his mind and leaving him heavy, but even without that he injuries he's sustained sap all of his energy day and night.
...
...
He's already dozing off again. ]
[ He stirs at the sound of a door creaking open, covering his mouth as a yawn escapes him. He doesn't hear the clacking of heels or the squeaks and thumps of a card being pushed along, and so he supposes the nurse must not have returned yet.
His eyes trial to the light creeping out from the slit in the bathroom door. He blinks slowly, trying and failing to twist his body to get a better look. ]
Nagito...?
[ The way he says his name is a little hopeful, a little tired, and a little bit confused - if he's being ignored, he has no idea as to why. ]
His eyes trial to the light creeping out from the slit in the bathroom door. He blinks slowly, trying and failing to twist his body to get a better look. ]
Nagito...?
[ The way he says his name is a little hopeful, a little tired, and a little bit confused - if he's being ignored, he has no idea as to why. ]
[ He's not responding, but Hiyori has already convinced himself that Komaeda is there. He stares at the door, bleary-eyed, his sluggish mind struggling to make sense if the situation. He hasn't done anything wrong, and if he had Komaeda would be quite vocal about it, and so there seems to be no reason for it. ]
Is something wrong...?
[ A moment of consideration followed by a mistaken conclusion: ]
Ah... I did get you in trouble, didn't I? Ahaha, I'm sure it was quite the surprise...
[ He doesn't seem to feel any remorse though. How could he when it was time spent with him? ]
Is something wrong...?
[ A moment of consideration followed by a mistaken conclusion: ]
Ah... I did get you in trouble, didn't I? Ahaha, I'm sure it was quite the surprise...
[ He doesn't seem to feel any remorse though. How could he when it was time spent with him? ]
[ The fact that he seems to have avoided running into trouble for the previous night makes it all the stranger that he would ignore Hiyori, who seems undaunted by the prospect of getting scolded himself. He's too high to care about such trivial matters, and so he watches Komaeda with that same dreamy smile from the night before, though it falters at the mention of him being released.
He would have kept him longer if it were him, due to his numerous afflictions and fragile condition, but it's not his call. ]
Did they? Ah, it seems I'll be alone again...
[ He'll be given a private room, of course. It's due to who he is, his sensitive condition, and of course the attention he's suddenly gained as of late. He was always well known enough, but it's gotten quite a bit worse. ]
Why wouldn't you answer me before...?
[ Maybe it's beginning to dawn on him, or at least he has a guess, because he follows up with a name after several seconds, ]
... Nagito...?
[ It's more tentative now, questioning, but there's no missing the affection and care that coats every syllable. ]
He would have kept him longer if it were him, due to his numerous afflictions and fragile condition, but it's not his call. ]
Did they? Ah, it seems I'll be alone again...
[ He'll be given a private room, of course. It's due to who he is, his sensitive condition, and of course the attention he's suddenly gained as of late. He was always well known enough, but it's gotten quite a bit worse. ]
Why wouldn't you answer me before...?
[ Maybe it's beginning to dawn on him, or at least he has a guess, because he follows up with a name after several seconds, ]
... Nagito...?
[ It's more tentative now, questioning, but there's no missing the affection and care that coats every syllable. ]
[ For a few seconds, he seems to notice the trick that Komaeda is playing on him. His face scrunches up in thought as he tries to determine what it is that bothers him, but in the end the drugs make it difficult to concentrate, and he quickly loses his point of focus as their next subject is elaborated on. It's fortunate, as he would never otherwise miss such a thing. ]
Ah... You can stay at my apartment if you want.
[ It's how they wound up in this position, but the offer rolls off his tongue as smoothly as if nothing had happened at all. The wording is sloppy and inelegant, and he must still be aware enough to notice for how quickly he corrects for it as he continues on, ]
I won't be released for some time, and in the meantime I'm in need of someone to look after the kittens... It's important to socialize them while they're young, and they do seem rather fond of you.
[ Well, from what little he'd seen them interact anyway. He doesn't worry, as the younger ultimate has a fondness for animals that draws them to him in turn. But then, it might be unpleasant for him now, or perhaps it would simply be too quiet for a person who distracts himself by listening to the sound of others living their lives. ]
Ah... You can stay at my apartment if you want.
[ It's how they wound up in this position, but the offer rolls off his tongue as smoothly as if nothing had happened at all. The wording is sloppy and inelegant, and he must still be aware enough to notice for how quickly he corrects for it as he continues on, ]
I won't be released for some time, and in the meantime I'm in need of someone to look after the kittens... It's important to socialize them while they're young, and they do seem rather fond of you.
[ Well, from what little he'd seen them interact anyway. He doesn't worry, as the younger ultimate has a fondness for animals that draws them to him in turn. But then, it might be unpleasant for him now, or perhaps it would simply be too quiet for a person who distracts himself by listening to the sound of others living their lives. ]
Meg... Ah, Sasahara-san has been kind enough to do so, but her schedule keeps her rather busy.
[ That should come as no surprise. As with Hiyori, the Ultimate Police Inspector is always on call. Her job isn't one that anyone can cover for, nor do such emergencies rest when they're off the clock. It no doubt makes it difficult to care for two small animals. Still, her fondness for animals and his slurred insistence had won her over in the end. He imagines that he'll be paying for new furniture for her before long.
He lifts his arm up, flicking his wrist a few times in a gesture that tells Komaeda to come closer. It could be that he hasn't gotten in enough trouble, or that he simply doesn't care, but it's far more likely that he just isn't aware of the consequences of his actions. He still wants to hold his hand, and look into those vacant green eyes, and see that smile that never reaches. He has beautiful eyes, and how mesmerizing they might be if only they sparkled and shined as they should.
He tries to process the suggestion. ]
Are you sure? It's really no trouble, but... Ah, I suppose I've only given you unpleasant memories.
[ Memories where he winds up hospitalized at the end, or is otherwise drugged, or walking in on a patient that's overdosed. They're memories coated in black and white and red, colors that he'd only just started to overwrite. A shame, he thinks - however rarely the surgeon might visit his apartment it was nonetheless his and sharing that space with another person was almost enough to make it feel like a home. ]
Yes, that will do.
[ That should come as no surprise. As with Hiyori, the Ultimate Police Inspector is always on call. Her job isn't one that anyone can cover for, nor do such emergencies rest when they're off the clock. It no doubt makes it difficult to care for two small animals. Still, her fondness for animals and his slurred insistence had won her over in the end. He imagines that he'll be paying for new furniture for her before long.
He lifts his arm up, flicking his wrist a few times in a gesture that tells Komaeda to come closer. It could be that he hasn't gotten in enough trouble, or that he simply doesn't care, but it's far more likely that he just isn't aware of the consequences of his actions. He still wants to hold his hand, and look into those vacant green eyes, and see that smile that never reaches. He has beautiful eyes, and how mesmerizing they might be if only they sparkled and shined as they should.
He tries to process the suggestion. ]
Are you sure? It's really no trouble, but... Ah, I suppose I've only given you unpleasant memories.
[ Memories where he winds up hospitalized at the end, or is otherwise drugged, or walking in on a patient that's overdosed. They're memories coated in black and white and red, colors that he'd only just started to overwrite. A shame, he thinks - however rarely the surgeon might visit his apartment it was nonetheless his and sharing that space with another person was almost enough to make it feel like a home. ]
Yes, that will do.
[ Hiyori can be passive aggressive, pushy, and prone to using various tricks to get his way, but the faintly puzzled look he offers upon being accused suggests that it was none of that. Rather, he was searching for some explanation as to why he wouldn't want to. He reaches over, managing to lift his back just enough to reach over and place his hand on Komaeda's arm. ]
You don't need to worry about me. They'll keep me here as long as they will no matter what I do.
[ He rubs his arm gingerly before giving it a pat, thinking nothing of the object in his hand. He remembers what they did last night. That, too, something he wishes his cute husband could have enjoyed more than he did... Ah, how terrible. ]
... If you wish to stay elsewhere, then I'll support that too.
You don't need to worry about me. They'll keep me here as long as they will no matter what I do.
[ He rubs his arm gingerly before giving it a pat, thinking nothing of the object in his hand. He remembers what they did last night. That, too, something he wishes his cute husband could have enjoyed more than he did... Ah, how terrible. ]
... If you wish to stay elsewhere, then I'll support that too.
[ A soft kiss between the two of them, and he thinks for a moment he might be able to rest easy. He's not allowed food quite yet, but he has no appetite in in this state regardless. There's nothing but that warm, drowsy feeling, and he might have started to sink down once more if he hadn't heard the area that Komaeda has chosen to move to. He frowns a little, shaking his head. ]
East Shinjuku? No, no, that really won't do...
[ His eyes brighten with just a flicker of awareness. It's that look that says he's settled on something, and if he were able to he would no doubt whisk Komaeda back to his apartment with him. Unfortunately, he's in no state to do so, and so he can only offer a faintly distressed look. ]
That won't do at all! I understand why you might feel uncomfortable staying at my apartment, but there are certainly nicer places for you to stay than that.
East Shinjuku? No, no, that really won't do...
[ His eyes brighten with just a flicker of awareness. It's that look that says he's settled on something, and if he were able to he would no doubt whisk Komaeda back to his apartment with him. Unfortunately, he's in no state to do so, and so he can only offer a faintly distressed look. ]
That won't do at all! I understand why you might feel uncomfortable staying at my apartment, but there are certainly nicer places for you to stay than that.
There's far more that can go wrong! You shouldn't subject yourself to so much smog. The smoke isn't good for your lungs. I even stopped, didn't I? That's without getting into the crime rate, and beside that, it's such a crowded and noisy place...
[ He had despite not needing to, for Komaeda as much as himself. He was never crass enough to smoke inside, but it was a poor habit. He places his hand on the bed's railing, struggling through the process of attempting to pull himself up into a proper sitting position. He winces as a stab of pain cuts through the heavy painkillers, but it seems the frustration is enough to allow him to try and ignore that as he rattles off one reason or another.
Hiyori doesn't mind the bustling city, the bright lights and the endless sound of footsteps and chatter and engines and horns, but he hasn't missed how claustrophobic his patient can be. ]
Honestly! Is my apartment so inhospitable?
[ He sounds a little offended, though the slow and slurred speech, along with the little pauses, serve as an odd contrast to the precise and carefully chosen words. It's even worse when he forgets to do even that much and thus chooses to end it with - ]
Is being around me that bad?
[ He had despite not needing to, for Komaeda as much as himself. He was never crass enough to smoke inside, but it was a poor habit. He places his hand on the bed's railing, struggling through the process of attempting to pull himself up into a proper sitting position. He winces as a stab of pain cuts through the heavy painkillers, but it seems the frustration is enough to allow him to try and ignore that as he rattles off one reason or another.
Hiyori doesn't mind the bustling city, the bright lights and the endless sound of footsteps and chatter and engines and horns, but he hasn't missed how claustrophobic his patient can be. ]
Honestly! Is my apartment so inhospitable?
[ He sounds a little offended, though the slow and slurred speech, along with the little pauses, serve as an odd contrast to the precise and carefully chosen words. It's even worse when he forgets to do even that much and thus chooses to end it with - ]
Is being around me that bad?
[ Hiyori worries now as much as ever. It's petulant and inelegant, perhaps even whiny, but in truth it's nothing more than a variation of the care he'd shown as his doctor. In those memories that his dementia ate over and over again, he was always Komaeda's single ally. He would smile as he listened to his every word, and he would pick and choose which ones to agree with. It's a wonderful thing that Ultimates exist, that they can bring such hope into the world, and what a beautiful soul Komaeda is for trying to nurture them. So long as he could find those points of common ground, he could offer his concerns and discuss solutions. But he was somebody who cared for him and his needs throughout it all, for his body and mind alike.
It's no different than now, taking into consideration every word and factor and possible issue for a person who won't do so for themselves. He would allow himself to wander into a dark basement to ensure his safety, quietly dispose of problems, fuss over and clean his every wound and injury however many times he might tear open skin and pull out stitches. ]
Come now... Have you truly thought this through? You forget to care for yourself, and you can be impulsive. Of course, I'm saddened that you would move to somewhere so far, but...
[ The sudden movement is a bit much on top of last night, and he coughs violent, spitting up blood. He wipes his mouth, rinse and repeat, with a couple false starts worked in before he finally manages to finish his thought, ]
... I want you to do what's best for you. You need to care for your health, and your mind as well... I know I can't stop you, but...
[ He bites his lip. It won't do to act as a parent would with a child, to be so overbearing and demanding, but drugs have removed his usual sensibility. ]
Are you sure?
It's no different than now, taking into consideration every word and factor and possible issue for a person who won't do so for themselves. He would allow himself to wander into a dark basement to ensure his safety, quietly dispose of problems, fuss over and clean his every wound and injury however many times he might tear open skin and pull out stitches. ]
Come now... Have you truly thought this through? You forget to care for yourself, and you can be impulsive. Of course, I'm saddened that you would move to somewhere so far, but...
[ The sudden movement is a bit much on top of last night, and he coughs violent, spitting up blood. He wipes his mouth, rinse and repeat, with a couple false starts worked in before he finally manages to finish his thought, ]
... I want you to do what's best for you. You need to care for your health, and your mind as well... I know I can't stop you, but...
[ He bites his lip. It won't do to act as a parent would with a child, to be so overbearing and demanding, but drugs have removed his usual sensibility. ]
Are you sure?
[ His wrist is taken, and Hiyori finally settles back. His hand trembles a little, as his body suffers for the strain he's put on it regardless of how well he can feel it, and it takes several deep breaths before his breathing finally evens out. Maybe he realizes that he's been pushing too hard, as his expression softens a tad as Komaeda sits next to him and massages his wrist. ]
Ah... It would be difficult for you, wouldn't it? Yes, the apartment adjacent to mind is mine as well, although I suppose it doesn't serve much purpose these days. I suppose I should cut it loose.
[ It does keep it quiet, but it had largely been a mix of storage a means of bringing people back without allowing them into his personal space. It's something more than the pristine, impersonal place that he stays, decorated with little mismatched pieces of other people's lives. No, he supposes that his apartment isn't suitable for Komaeda at all. His line of thought is disrupted by the warmth against his finger, and he shivers as a warm tongue presses against it, the saliva left being cooling quickly.
He lets out a small sigh.]
I suppose... It would have to wait until I'm released, and perhaps I do worry too much. I just want you to be careful. There's only one of you, after all.
[ It's not that he's disposable. It's the opposite, really - it's because he's irreplaceable that Hiyori worries so. ]
Ah... It would be difficult for you, wouldn't it? Yes, the apartment adjacent to mind is mine as well, although I suppose it doesn't serve much purpose these days. I suppose I should cut it loose.
[ It does keep it quiet, but it had largely been a mix of storage a means of bringing people back without allowing them into his personal space. It's something more than the pristine, impersonal place that he stays, decorated with little mismatched pieces of other people's lives. No, he supposes that his apartment isn't suitable for Komaeda at all. His line of thought is disrupted by the warmth against his finger, and he shivers as a warm tongue presses against it, the saliva left being cooling quickly.
He lets out a small sigh.]
I suppose... It would have to wait until I'm released, and perhaps I do worry too much. I just want you to be careful. There's only one of you, after all.
[ It's not that he's disposable. It's the opposite, really - it's because he's irreplaceable that Hiyori worries so. ]
Ah, you have a visitor?
[ There's a hint of curiosity but nothing more. He coughs once more, this time not spitting up blood, but the coppery taste remains in his mouth as he clears his throat and swallows. Once he's released, Komaeda is likely the only one who will visit him for any reason other than business. It's fortunate, then, that he'll spend most of his time too unaware to think of such things. ]
Yes, of course... I believe the nurse will be back soon, so I'll have her to contend with in the meantime.
[ He'll be scolded further, of course, once she realizes that he was agitating his injuries in such a way. He yawns, the moment of clarity passing as easily as it had come as he thinks of the mundane and boring affairs that come with being trapped in a hospital. He'll be kept awake for it too, just the small amount of effort he'd put forth is enough to have exhausted him. She'll no doubt take comfort in that as much as the fact that his sex drive is once more suppressed by the heavy painkillers. ]
[ There's a hint of curiosity but nothing more. He coughs once more, this time not spitting up blood, but the coppery taste remains in his mouth as he clears his throat and swallows. Once he's released, Komaeda is likely the only one who will visit him for any reason other than business. It's fortunate, then, that he'll spend most of his time too unaware to think of such things. ]
Yes, of course... I believe the nurse will be back soon, so I'll have her to contend with in the meantime.
[ He'll be scolded further, of course, once she realizes that he was agitating his injuries in such a way. He yawns, the moment of clarity passing as easily as it had come as he thinks of the mundane and boring affairs that come with being trapped in a hospital. He'll be kept awake for it too, just the small amount of effort he'd put forth is enough to have exhausted him. She'll no doubt take comfort in that as much as the fact that his sex drive is once more suppressed by the heavy painkillers. ]
[ How lucky that Hiyori is too out of it to properly notice the object that Komaeda carries on him. It's in his sights, and he can acknowledge its existence, but there seems to be no reason to question it. He acquiesces to speaking about it upon his return, and before too long the soft click of a door shutting tells him that he's been left alone once more, the steady beeps of the heart rate monitor and the muffled sounds of activity from behind the door his only companions.
With nothing to distract him, his eyes start to droop, and he manages to doze off for a brief period before the sound of a knock shakes him out of his sleep with a start. He turns his head to look in that direction once more. It must be a member of the medical staff, but knocking is nothing more than a way of announcing themselves before barging in regardless of their patient's response, and so he simply waits.
Ah, he wonders if they were waiting to see if he would be left alone... How frightening. ]
With nothing to distract him, his eyes start to droop, and he manages to doze off for a brief period before the sound of a knock shakes him out of his sleep with a start. He turns his head to look in that direction once more. It must be a member of the medical staff, but knocking is nothing more than a way of announcing themselves before barging in regardless of their patient's response, and so he simply waits.
Ah, he wonders if they were waiting to see if he would be left alone... How frightening. ]
[ There she is! As he thought, she's come to express her frustrations with him. It's no surprise when there's a certain amount of pressure placed upon a person when taking care of one with such high status. Really though, she does need to learn more patience - it's unfair to expect such good behavior from him when his actions were nothing more than a bit of mischief compared to the damage that can be wrought by others. ]
Now, now... Nothing happened, and there are no children here who will be taking after me! I would never encourage my patients to act is such a way.
[ Which is now true, but even before, the teenager who had been curled up with him was already far past the point where he would be able to be a bad influence.
That said, he does good himself to different standards. ]
The drugs clouded my judgment, I'm afraid, and how lucky I am that our staff does such fine work... I do apologize that you had to start your morning in such an unpleasant way.
[ It's still clouding his judgment, leaving him with a hazy expression, but he at least seems to understand that he made a mistake, even if it doesn't feel like one. ]
Now, now... Nothing happened, and there are no children here who will be taking after me! I would never encourage my patients to act is such a way.
[ Which is now true, but even before, the teenager who had been curled up with him was already far past the point where he would be able to be a bad influence.
That said, he does good himself to different standards. ]
The drugs clouded my judgment, I'm afraid, and how lucky I am that our staff does such fine work... I do apologize that you had to start your morning in such an unpleasant way.
[ It's still clouding his judgment, leaving him with a hazy expression, but he at least seems to understand that he made a mistake, even if it doesn't feel like one. ]
Ah, I'm afraid that neither of us were in a state to consider the consequences...
[ It was nothing more than a momentary lapse in judgment, as such drugs can easily convince a person that their actions have no consequences. His mind is just as heavy now as it was then, but without the added stimulation and growing pains that can so easily distract a person.
He decides not to think about whether or not one of them would have stuck it back in if they had the mind to. He does hear her though, and of course he's aware that she's correct. It's a small miracle that no further complications arose from their little adventure, particularly with Komaeda playing with bandages and licking at staples. But his husband is leaving, and any desire Hiyori might otherwise have to repeat it is gone. ]
Please forgive me... I promise I'll behave myself from here on out. I don't want to be here any longer than necessary, nor cause you any further trouble.
[ It was nothing more than a momentary lapse in judgment, as such drugs can easily convince a person that their actions have no consequences. His mind is just as heavy now as it was then, but without the added stimulation and growing pains that can so easily distract a person.
He decides not to think about whether or not one of them would have stuck it back in if they had the mind to. He does hear her though, and of course he's aware that she's correct. It's a small miracle that no further complications arose from their little adventure, particularly with Komaeda playing with bandages and licking at staples. But his husband is leaving, and any desire Hiyori might otherwise have to repeat it is gone. ]
Please forgive me... I promise I'll behave myself from here on out. I don't want to be here any longer than necessary, nor cause you any further trouble.
[ That's such a harsh punishment, especially for how long he'll be here, but it's not one that he can argue about. They'll overlook quite a bit of the surgeon's behavior due to his value to the company, but that same value means they won't let him act so recklessly that he dies in the hospital. ]
There's no need for that, I assure you. Komaeda-kun means no harm, but it's easy for those who aren't in our line of work to forget how fragile the body is.
[ The same could be said of Hiyori, who stopped thinking of his own condition upon being presented with other things, and some part of him wonders if he shouldn't have at least asked Komaeda if he couldn't clean him up a little more before they curled up together. It's too late now, and all he can do is correct for it going forward. He chuckles softly, remaining just lucid enough to be embarrassed by this entire affair. ]
So long as I'm responsible enough to tell him "no," there will be no problem... Truly, I'm more concerned with other behaviors.
[ Which is to say, he's far more willing to bring harm to himself than others. ]
There's no need for that, I assure you. Komaeda-kun means no harm, but it's easy for those who aren't in our line of work to forget how fragile the body is.
[ The same could be said of Hiyori, who stopped thinking of his own condition upon being presented with other things, and some part of him wonders if he shouldn't have at least asked Komaeda if he couldn't clean him up a little more before they curled up together. It's too late now, and all he can do is correct for it going forward. He chuckles softly, remaining just lucid enough to be embarrassed by this entire affair. ]
So long as I'm responsible enough to tell him "no," there will be no problem... Truly, I'm more concerned with other behaviors.
[ Which is to say, he's far more willing to bring harm to himself than others. ]
[ To hear that another did everything stings to hear, and he would like to object if not for how true it is. In fact, he considers objecting regardless, but he can't think of anything of significance that he was able to contribute. Regrettably, she's quite right in that he's incapable of moving. ]
Ah... It should be enough for me to refuse him going forward! But there's no harm in him simply coming by me, yes...? So long as nothing, ah, untoward is done....
[ Komaeda suffered a hefty injury, but it's nothing when compared to what Hiyori has suffered. His stay is to ensure his comfort and full recovery, whereas the latter would likely die if not given specialized care now. But if it were his own patients, wold he allow such behaviors? Even if it might seem harmless, would he knowing what would inevitably ensue?
... ]
... And I send him back to his bed straightaway! I wish for no harm to come to him, and I wish to treat his care just as I would my own.
[ That much, at least, can be presumed to be true. Hiyori is cautious of his own care when in control of his faculties, and he has reached such a level for a reason.
...
...
Given him a moment to process the rest of his punishment.
...
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No sweets...? Granted, he hasn't really been able to eat, but... ]
Ah, five days...? Isn't that a bit much...?
[ What is he supposed to have in the meantime? ]
Ah... It should be enough for me to refuse him going forward! But there's no harm in him simply coming by me, yes...? So long as nothing, ah, untoward is done....
[ Komaeda suffered a hefty injury, but it's nothing when compared to what Hiyori has suffered. His stay is to ensure his comfort and full recovery, whereas the latter would likely die if not given specialized care now. But if it were his own patients, wold he allow such behaviors? Even if it might seem harmless, would he knowing what would inevitably ensue?
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... And I send him back to his bed straightaway! I wish for no harm to come to him, and I wish to treat his care just as I would my own.
[ That much, at least, can be presumed to be true. Hiyori is cautious of his own care when in control of his faculties, and he has reached such a level for a reason.
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Given him a moment to process the rest of his punishment.
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No sweets...? Granted, he hasn't really been able to eat, but... ]
Ah, five days...? Isn't that a bit much...?
[ What is he supposed to have in the meantime? ]
[ bout ready to roll persuasion on this ]
Komaeda-kun isn't fond of sweets, and so you need not worry about that... I can't very well stomach anything right now, so vitamin supplements have been more than enough!
[ It must be habit that leaves him so dejected by the idea, as he truly has no desire to eat even now. The idea is sickening. But it does tell him something. This woman just be the cautious sort, one who's too serious for their own good.
Hiyori doesn't need another person to make his decisions for him. He laughs, sheepish once more. ]
Now, you really must have more faith in me! My decisions are still quite sound, and one can't take an isolated incident to deny that. It hurts too hear my coworkers assume the worst of me!
[ It should be reassuring enough that being injured and drugged up hasn't removed that dramatic flair. Less reassuring is the fact that he's still just as difficult as ever when it comes to what he wants. ]
Truly, truly cruel to be told that my input will be ignored... Ah, my heart might just break...
Komaeda-kun isn't fond of sweets, and so you need not worry about that... I can't very well stomach anything right now, so vitamin supplements have been more than enough!
[ It must be habit that leaves him so dejected by the idea, as he truly has no desire to eat even now. The idea is sickening. But it does tell him something. This woman just be the cautious sort, one who's too serious for their own good.
Hiyori doesn't need another person to make his decisions for him. He laughs, sheepish once more. ]
Now, you really must have more faith in me! My decisions are still quite sound, and one can't take an isolated incident to deny that. It hurts too hear my coworkers assume the worst of me!
[ It should be reassuring enough that being injured and drugged up hasn't removed that dramatic flair. Less reassuring is the fact that he's still just as difficult as ever when it comes to what he wants. ]
Truly, truly cruel to be told that my input will be ignored... Ah, my heart might just break...
My, my, do you believe that my being a patient has caused me to lose all good sense?
[ Those words are said in the light, playful tone of an employee teasing a coworker. It's a reasonable concern when the amount of drugs he's on has eaten away at his sensibility, but it isn't as though he's suddenly abandoned all restraint. The previous night was nothing more than a misstep, the type of mistake that even the young woman in front of him could make.
He glances down as she looks. There's a mess hidden underneath the bandages, and if he looks too long he starts to remember the awful throb that had followed the bandages being played with and his staple licked at. ]
No objections. ♡
[ Those words are said in the light, playful tone of an employee teasing a coworker. It's a reasonable concern when the amount of drugs he's on has eaten away at his sensibility, but it isn't as though he's suddenly abandoned all restraint. The previous night was nothing more than a misstep, the type of mistake that even the young woman in front of him could make.
He glances down as she looks. There's a mess hidden underneath the bandages, and if he looks too long he starts to remember the awful throb that had followed the bandages being played with and his staple licked at. ]
No objections. ♡
Yes, you're right... Thank you for your assistance.
[ What a charming young woman. She seems to be the serious type, careful and considerate, the type of person he would expect them to send in to take care of him. He supposes he needs to be careful. It's a bit frightening to take care of such a prestigious person. If something happens, they'll need someone to blame.
He'll be more careful. He does want to recover quickly. But it won't do to have her bullying his cute patient either. ]
Ah, no, this is his room until he's officially discharged, and then he'll be my visitor... I'll be lonely if he just leaves me...
[ He shouldn't be discharged today, but it's possible that he will be. ]
[ What a charming young woman. She seems to be the serious type, careful and considerate, the type of person he would expect them to send in to take care of him. He supposes he needs to be careful. It's a bit frightening to take care of such a prestigious person. If something happens, they'll need someone to blame.
He'll be more careful. He does want to recover quickly. But it won't do to have her bullying his cute patient either. ]
Ah, no, this is his room until he's officially discharged, and then he'll be my visitor... I'll be lonely if he just leaves me...
[ He shouldn't be discharged today, but it's possible that he will be. ]
[ A frightening woman indeed! Midori chuckles as walks off with a huff after giving both of them another firm warning. He'll doze off on his own soon enough, and so there's no need for to worry so when he's already agreed to behave. He supposes it can't be helped when her morning began with such a mess. With any luck, by time she's returned some of her agitation will have died down.
He smiles, head turned, listening to the shaking doorknob. It's probably because she had given him such firm orders. He's sensitive to such tings, and moreso when he finds a person whom he can look down upon. ]
Nagito... Won't you come by me? I was waiting for you to come back.
He smiles, head turned, listening to the shaking doorknob. It's probably because she had given him such firm orders. He's sensitive to such tings, and moreso when he finds a person whom he can look down upon. ]
Nagito... Won't you come by me? I was waiting for you to come back.
... Nagito?
[ He had heard her just fine, but he's chosen not to listen to those orders. It isn't as though he's going to die from talking to his roommate, no more than he would if they were a visitor. Unfortunately, it doesn't occur to him that the name is the issue any more than before.
He hears the sound of the window opening and turns his head, a frown appearing on his face. ]
... Did I say something wrong? You don't need to go out through the window, if you don't want to talk...
[ He trails off, brushing his hair back, looking down briefly. He sounds hurt. ]
[ He had heard her just fine, but he's chosen not to listen to those orders. It isn't as though he's going to die from talking to his roommate, no more than he would if they were a visitor. Unfortunately, it doesn't occur to him that the name is the issue any more than before.
He hears the sound of the window opening and turns his head, a frown appearing on his face. ]
... Did I say something wrong? You don't need to go out through the window, if you don't want to talk...
[ He trails off, brushing his hair back, looking down briefly. He sounds hurt. ]
Hm...? We're married now, aren't we? You can call me "Sou" if you'd like.
[ It's for the closeness and care that addressing him in such a personal way implies, and particularly for Hiyori who tends to address others in a polite and formal manner.
But now that something has been said, it occurs to him that Komaeda has objected to his name being used in the past. It must be a sore spot for hm. ]
Is it really so bad...? You have a wonderful name. It rolls right off the tongue, and it rings like a bell in my ears... ♡
[ Hm, he'll probably just object to that, however genuine the words may be. ]
... Ah, but I didn't mean to upset you. I should have asked first.
[ It's for the closeness and care that addressing him in such a personal way implies, and particularly for Hiyori who tends to address others in a polite and formal manner.
But now that something has been said, it occurs to him that Komaeda has objected to his name being used in the past. It must be a sore spot for hm. ]
Is it really so bad...? You have a wonderful name. It rolls right off the tongue, and it rings like a bell in my ears... ♡
[ Hm, he'll probably just object to that, however genuine the words may be. ]
... Ah, but I didn't mean to upset you. I should have asked first.
[ He laughs softly. It's no different than holding hands or kissing, or any other form of intimacy, but those are all things that Komaeda is afraid of too. It's the closeness that scares him, no doubt because of his luck. ]
It's not disrespectful, it's a display of affection... There's no need to force myself to say my cute husband's name. It's a beautiful name, befitting of a person who will one day shine so brightly.
[ It's a name based in the stars. Nagito, the calm beneath the big dipper, those stars which sparkle and illuminate what would otherwise be a dark sky. Humans would look into an empty void if not for those dots that shine down upon and guide them. ]
You don't need to worry about protecting me.
[ It's not a refusal though. Hiyori is ever mindful of how far he can push before breaking him, and sometimes these little attempts at strengthening their bond do fall through. ]
It's not disrespectful, it's a display of affection... There's no need to force myself to say my cute husband's name. It's a beautiful name, befitting of a person who will one day shine so brightly.
[ It's a name based in the stars. Nagito, the calm beneath the big dipper, those stars which sparkle and illuminate what would otherwise be a dark sky. Humans would look into an empty void if not for those dots that shine down upon and guide them. ]
You don't need to worry about protecting me.
[ It's not a refusal though. Hiyori is ever mindful of how far he can push before breaking him, and sometimes these little attempts at strengthening their bond do fall through. ]
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