( closed to @luck ) your turn to die: sou hiyori

[killed]

With varying vanities, from every part, they shift the moving toyshop of their heart.

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NOT TODAY honestly i'm going to need them for him at this rate.

[supporter]

[ It's as he had thought. The kisses and licks that leave a stupid smile on his face despite the vile words he speaks end the moment he speaks the truth. Those were never anything more than a means of pulling it out of him... Ah, he should have gone slower, dragged it out as long as he could so that he could enjoy that sensation for a little while longer. There's no more hitching breath or pleading whimpers, but only the warm steam clinging to his exposed skin and the cool sensation of saliva drying. A warm hand joins it on his hip, and he truly does regret his actions.

How unfortunate. No matter how many times he rolls the dice, they continue to try and flip over to snake eyes on this issue. But that's no good; he'll reroll and reroll until he gets the results that he wants, flick them over with his finger to the appropriate side.

But even without Komaeda's concerns and tendency to deride himself, Hiyori's mood is already ruined. It pisses him off just to think about others believing they can treat him in such a way, it makes his blood boil that they can treat someone under the care of Sou Hiyori as though he were their plaything. He lifts his hands up, placing cool hands on warm cheeks and shushing him quietly. The uncomfortable feeling of his erection and the need to continue haven't quite subsided after being teased, but the more he hears the more he finds himself easing out of it. ]

There, there... There, there now... There's no need for that, now is there? Even playing the a roll diligently, I have a different air about me than Komaeda-kun, do I not? It's difficult to cover up confidence when passing as a person I so wish to see it in.

[ He brushes his thumbs against his cheek, leaning up to kiss him softly. He's pissed off, ah, he's so pissed off, but none of it is directed at the person in front of him... He is, perhaps, disappointed though, but he smoothly shifts into caring for the others. He can be flaky, whiny, and obnoxious, but he never fails there. ]

It's alright. I took care of it. It's the duty of adults to teach unruly children how to behave so they can grow up to be responsible adults... You see, the older you get, the less mistakes you can make... But, ah, I think I might die of shame for allowing myself to be so careless with Komaeda-kun's body...

[ He should have thrust that taser in someone's chest and turned it on the second he saw such worthless trash. ]

Oh, yes, I believe one of them planned on killing me... I must have upset them. But as you can see, I did prevent that much.

NOT HOW MANY WHINY FACES stopp he does, all he does is complain!!

[supporter]

[ The kiss on his forehead erodes the first layer of anger that's set his course for him. Komaeda's peers are a bit too old to be shown patience and understanding when acting in such a reprehensible manner, but it occurs to hi presently that Komaeda is a delicate child, despite how he acts, and one that Hiyori needs to handle with more care than he sometimes does. There's nothing more frightening than someone who's been ignored until now suddenly being seen as a threat. IBut if he erases the incident, then there will be no point in punishing them.

He whimpers as a warm hand rubs his thigh once more and gasps when it takes his dick in hand before moving up. He's not really horny anymore, this body doesn't crave sex in the way that his own does, but it's mental as much as physical. If he can take his next hit, then he doesn't have to acknowledge how tired he is, how much everything hurts, the poison in his heart. ]

It's not your fault... For your sake, I shall erase the incident from their memories. It'll be as though nothing ever happened, and you will need not carry the consequences of my actions...

[ It's a begrudging offer that doesn't hide his distaste for doing so, but it's unfair to ask the younger Ultimate to carry such a weight when he lacks Hiyori's presence. ]

You're right... I need to take care of myself and you, my beloved husband, and no others... So I'll put it out of my mind as well... And we need to continue if your mood has soured.

[ He places a hand on his cheek once more so that he can lean up to give him a brief kiss. They can shower together and curl up in bed together. He'll fall asleep first, but he could take comfort in doing so while under the covers and pressed up against a warm body. ]

STOPPP HE HAS PLENTY TO COMPLAIN ABOUT!! PLENTY!

[supporter]

[ He manages to slip out of his boxers before being dips down, and he find that he's not hard for long after the warm hand is removed from his dick. It's quite the difference, but he thinks no matter what such an unpleasant topic would kill the mood. He satisfies himself with the warmth of the body holding him and the splash water that coats his skin as he stumbles back before dipping into the water, creating splashes and overflow that create small waterfalls over the edge and large puddles on the floor. It can be cleaned up later though.

It's embarrassing to be seen like this, covered in fresh bruises that show the abuse he'd suffered and even the attempt on his life, but Komaeda is sensitive enough to avoid wounding his pride overmuch. The water is colder than he'd like, but it's not yet at the point of being unpleasant, easily remidied. He shakes his head as he sinks down into the water. ]

I can... Every touch laid upon me and word spoken... Ah, it irritates me just to think about it.

[ He detaches himself from Komaeda to pull the drain plug up, allowing the cool water to begin filtering out... It's a bit of a shame. He had wanted to take a nice bubble bath, but he supposes it should still be nice enough even diluted. He has probably has more lavender oil on him than the tub does. If he had his way, he would ensure every second of their lives was a living Hell. He would push them to the brink, but he would never quite let them pass it. But that will only mar the reputation of someone unfairly. Komaeda loves hope above all else, and in turn he loves those symbols of hope that attend Hope's Peak. He's not meant to be feared by them.

They share the same love, one that can be as kind or cruel as it needs to be, but when and where it shows itself are different. He turns back to Komaeda as he waits for the level to drop, kissing his cheek. ]

... But Komaeda-kun is an ally to hope, and he he can't be that if he's feared by those who represent it, can he? There's no point in punishing a person who doesn't understand what they've done wrong... I can satisfy myself with simply keeping a few reckless teenagers from making mistakes.

[ Which is all to say, that he'll let others handle them. It's a lighter touch than he would otherwise offer, and one that's far kinder than he tends to offer those who slight him. He pauses to push the drain down and turn the faucet, finding a temperature he likes before kissing his cheek once more. ]

And if I'm still wounded despite that, then I suppose you'll just have to kiss me all better. ♡

HIS BODY HURTS AND HE'S TIRED AND CRANKY AND PPL EMBARRASSED HIM!!!

[supporter]

[ His reassurance seems to have put him at ease. Good. He might not have been able to forgive them if they upset his cute husband so too, but the soft kisses remind him that he can afford to show a bit of mercy. It wouldn't do to ruin his record, and he owes him this kindness. After all, Komaeda has been his greatest and most important ally throughout all of this. Hiyori had wanted to draw the attention of certain people, and his going on about Ultimate Surgeon this and Ultimate Surgeon that so shortly after he learned what title he held had suited that purpose. It's only gotten worse since he spoke those words aloud; if a lesser person had done it their words might have disappeared like a drop of water in the ocean, but Sou Hiyori holds an impeccable pedigree, riches and fame, and a once in a lifetime talent of the sort that it baffles the mind that they hadn't found him.

It's been funny to watch the arguments and debates. If only any of them were sharp enough to unearth the truth hidden just out of view. That person would make his heart beat faster and knees buckle, and he'd shower them with adoring words and praise as he carved their heart right out of their chest, for such a person can only do undue harm to the world... For just a moment though, he would give them the purest and strongest love that anyone could give them.

When he recalls that, it makes it a little easier for him to set aside his frustration, settling back as he watches the water rising. ]

There's no need for you to blame yourself, Komaeda-kun. It's lucky that I have you to help me see it from a different view, is it not? They're in need of a guiding hand, and now they have one...

[ It does little to erode his frustration when he can't properly show them the consequence of their actions, but it's true enough. Such sickness must be stopped before it can spread. He nods in agreement of the lateral statement as he continues, ]

I've never liked men who are so unduly rough... How fortunate I am to have a partner who's always so gentle. ♡ That sounds wonderful... I'm sure I'll feel better after.

[ Despite the flirty one, he does mean it. He should take better care of his body, but he can already feel the exhaustion and aches starting to sink back in. The gel he put on and the bath should do well for that at least. ]

STOOOPPP HE'S A MARRIED MAN, HE DON'T WANT NO OTHER DICKS!!

[supporter]

That's right... You're all at a vulnerable age. If adults lose sight of you, then you'll inevitably fall into such a deep despair that none can save you.

[He's twenty-four now, only seven years their senior, but even that feels like a lifetime of a difference. He has no regrets about his actions, as they were just and shaped him into a brilliant individual that few can compare to, yet he's not so naive as to realize that he's already passed that threshold. It's unlikely that Komaeda would have fallen to despair without his interference, but he would have been locked into a far lonelier life. But perhaps that would have been better. They've both been getting soft. It's all so embarrassing, and he isn't quite certain how to vent that frustration now.

He's a horrible man, one who plays with his words and weasels out of things often enough, but he doesn't go back on his word. ]

Please forgive me for causing you such trouble...

[ He sinks down a little further as he pushes his knees up and spreads his legs as requested. He blinks slowly. It's a little difficult for him to focus, as the exhaustion of such a long day is beginning to settle in, but he recalls how agitated Komaeda had been earlier. It's odd enough to remain at the edges of his thoughts. He's far too kind, offering pieces of himself despite whatever it might be that bothered him so. ]

Komaeda-kun... You're a better judge of character than most. Have you noticed anything odd about your peers? Even compared to most, your classmates seem to be standing on a shaky foundation. It does concern me.

[ He might not care for the place or many of the students, but he's not so stupid as to miss how much could go awry if even one of them was misled. As narrow as their talents are, they're still dangerous. They're in need of someone who can utilize him properly, and seeing that school once more has reminded him of it. ]

Tsumiki-chan for example... I had hoped that Namida-san would take her under her wing, and I believe she intends to, but I fear that she'll struggle if no one does so.

[ Shouldn't that be Tsumiki-san? Anyway. ]

WELL HE DIDN'T WANT TO!!! thinkin abt him cranky

[supporter]

[ Hiyori's presence is that of a sunny summer day, one with the just the slightest breeze that tempers its warm; he's a calm and kind man with a boundless patience, but what follows the yelp that the smack draws is a quiet anger, something that blots out the sun and plunges the world into a snowy tundra. ]

... Do not denigrate or deprecate myself or my importance when I've already gone so far out of my way for you. Whatever body I might have, I am Sou Hiyori, and I will not be lowered to the level of those who can't even reach my feet, much less beneath them.

[ There's a sharpness to those words that's rare for him, his voice as cold as ice. The human body can be healed, muscle memory rebuilt, and connections built up into a complex web, and all of those things would be child's play when left in his hands, but his brilliance and talent cannot be replicated by any living human. He's worked far too hard to be told to pay such respect to those who might as well be trash on the side of the road to him and Komaeda should be so grateful for him to be deferential at all. Just the thought of it makes him want to -

He really is in a foul mood after today's event, but he takes a breath to temper himself. He knows that he shouldn't allow himself to get so worked up to start and even less while allowing another person to work on him, but he's never had much tolerance for such displays of disrespect. Those who did find themselves learning the error of their ways quickly... No, he's just still upset about earlier. He's tired, he's afraid, and everything hurts; he's been treated as some helpless joke, and it takes every bit of self control from him not to snap over how readily his own husband would have obliged.

That pent up frustration doesn't need anywhere to go; he's a fine adult for being able to hold it all it, but it does need to put his mind to something aside from his own helplessness. There's a groan as Komaeda sticks his finger in. He does his best to relax to ease the process, but the emotional tension combined with the pain means he tightens around his fingers. His back arches and his shoulders rise, but despite that his cheeks tint pink. He hates pain, it doesn't get him off now any more than before, but the touch is pleasant enough for him to work through it.

There. Just like that, he's pushed all those toxic feelings down. His voice softens, now tinged with worry, ]

... Now, what is it that has you so bothered? You were agitated when I came in today... You don't wish to think about it, but it's clearly occupying your mind. Tell me.

STOPPP i'm crying his temper is so bad when it flares up

[supporter]

[ There's a pathetic whine and as he goes out of his way to dig his nails in to what is always a sensitive area, but even mroeso now, complaining about it hurting. None of that is anything new, but there's just the faintest note of annoyance that remains. They're two different people, and the lack of acknlowedgment is kindling added to the fire. That place irritates him, the students in it irritate him, the stagnacny irritates him more of all.

not everyone can go through life like a turkey in the rain, their heads tilted back and mouths open even as they drown in the rain. Not everyone has luck to entrust themselves to and delusions to hide away in. Not everyone can just be plucked up and thrown into a dollhouse, a label slapped on them so they can waste the world's time by being so coveted and given undeserved power and attention.

Some people have to work hard. Some people have to work harder and harder until there's nothing left but the next task, the next job, the next talent. Some people have to swallow the raw truth down like cyanide capsules, but despite that poison that runs through his veins his heart keeps filtering it and pumping it back through his blood while his lungs continue to expand and contract. Some people have to deal with that, struggle and suffer and claw their way through life, every night full of nightmares and every day an even worse one.

Some people have to be looked down on for doing the right thing, because those around them are too stupid to understand.

He should have just killed them all then, found the perfect day to gas the entire place and rid the world of that that trash. If he set it aflame, then the world would know what a disgusting stench it had.

But it's unfair of him to expect a delusional child who worships that group while believing that talent is a feature to be flipped on and off like a lightswitch to understand those feelings. Rather, he would rather continue to make demands, push more, pull harder. Hiyori can ignore that though. He let them survive despite his misgivings, because then and now he was a wonderful adult - the only one who was.

He sits up. There's a wince, but he smooths his expression into something neutral. Unlike others, he can control his emotions. He can be calm and collected like this because he's no longer the youth that others looked down upon and scorned for lacking the cowardice that others have... He takes in a breath and exhales. He's just tired. His chest feels tight, his lungs aren't getting enough air, and there's a disgusting taste that he can't get off of his tongue despite his dying taste buds. ]

... No, I know better than to dismiss the concerns of others out of hand. I won't think of you as insane, so please, tell me.

KOMAEDA WOUNDED HIS PRIDE!!! it's fine he'll be less crabby now

[supporter]

[ It's not like him to be so temperamental. The fact that he is only adds to his foul mood, but he knows it's not just about that unfortunate incident. It's even less about the fact that he can't keep Komaeda to himself when he's a man who knows how to communicate and work out such problems. His school years weren't unpleasant nor was that period of time something traumatic; it was just an awakening, it was a poison, and it made it so he worked hard and harder. It didn't hurt then and it doesn't now but instead drove him to greatness.

He sighs, but the hand on his thigh does seem to alleviate his agitation, and his fingertips brush against the back of his hand before Hiyori eases himself back. He stares at the ceiling as he listens to Komaeda, his head tilting forward slightly to look at him as he continues. He can't see the world through the Ultimate Lucky Student's eyes, hope and despair aren't a bright shine and an inky darkness, but he sees the world through a different lens, one that robs the world of color. It's only on rare occasions that somebody takes stains the walks and the floor, catching his eye for but a moment before it fades away.

It's frustrating, it's unforgivable, but if they could see it then he wouldn't be needed by them. ]

... There's a few that I've been looking at, but I haven't had the opportunity to meet them yet. Your senses are sharper than mine, but my vision is still better than others.

[ Hope, despair, then nothing at all. He's looked at the world from all angles. ]

It's the duty of those of us who can see what others can't to endure that feeling. It's our honor to prevent that infection from spreading, so I won't allow you to speak of running away.

[ Those words are firm but not unkind. It's a duty, an honor, an obsession... Ah, what a terrible time to have this conversation. If not for his fixation on the subject he migh tlaugh. ]

... It's frightening, isn't it? It's vile and disgusting, it chokes out all the life around it and poisons the soil so that nothing can grow, but... Listen to me, Komaeda-kun.

NOT HIS BACK GAME ugh so true he is UPSET and he an't even get his petty revenge

[supporter]

... Do you know why God placed a piece of himself upon the earth, Komaeda-kun?

[ He reaches out to stroke his hair. He'll give him just a moment to consider that question. Those of the Christian religion tend to mistake it for being a sacrifice meant to purify their sins, but God had no need of that when he arbitrarily makes rules for humans. ]

It's because he can't look forward, nor can he look up, but only down while humans suffer on the Hell that he threw them into. What his son brought back wasn't the sacrifice of his life, but the suffering that you and I face daily. How we hurt, how we agonize, and yet, how we find happiness despite that.

[ Perhaps that's why humans are so smitten with the idea of a human ascending to a level of a god, for they would have control over both the heavens they reside in and the earth they look down upon. It's a story he'll have heard a hundred times by now, for there are so many stories that focus on the duality of life and the struggle to find those small moments of warmth it. Small, tiny moments that break through the ever present fear of pain and death like rays of sunshine filtering through rain clouds. ]

Despair is like that... It's not a poison nor a cancer, but something that forces you to see the world as it is - something delicate and fragile, painful and heart-wrenching, and those within it are always teetering on the edge without even realizing it... Nothing can hurt you anymore, nothing can stop you.

[ Perhaps Komaeda is a little too young to understand such a philosophical view. He's coded in binaries, but nothing can hurt Hiyori anymore. Nothing can change the path that he's set for himself because if it were to, then his entire life would have been wasted. He keeps stroking his hair, using cool fingers to brush the bangs out of his face. He's a smart boy, but he needs just a bit longer to realize the significance of that time.

He should put it in simpler terms. ]

... I had to experience it so that I could become something greater, so I could be what this world needs. Nothing can hurt me, nothing can break me, nothing can hide from me. Until my dying breath I'll cut it out of this world, and even that won't come until I've seen the person who represents it so dead...

[ He's never one to hide the facts nor details, but even compared to his norm flowery speeches he offers quite a bit here. He must be tired, or perhaps it really is the stress of the day's events, because in a quiter voice he voices something that he never otherwise would: ]

If I can't, then what was it all for...?

[ His efforts, his suffering, his insistence that everyone but him was wrong - what would that matter when he was even more vulnerable than the rest and twice as worthless? Why did he pry open his eyes and see the truth of the world, live among the worst humans when he could have lived a simple and easy life? ]

HE DIDN'T GET IT ALL OUT OF HIS SYSTEM!!! but ok true i guess he shouldn't greed

[supporter]

Do you think so? God sent a piece of him off, and it returned to him with all that composes a human. I think it's a wonderful story.

[ It's as much a fantasy as any other, but he can appreciate the sentiment behind it and the comfort it gave to others. He uses the tips of his fingers to brush some of the hair out of his face before resting his hand on his stomach. He stares at the ceiling. If there were some greater state of existence that he could reach then he too would be willing to die. There's not, though, and so he chases after the elixir of immortality. ]

How unlike you to fret so...

[ He chuckles. It's Komaeda who insists upon making him that god which walks upon Earth but Hiyori has already become something greater for the pain that he's suffered up until now. If it's Komaeda, then it should be enough to say that if he were to die, his hope wasn't strong enough.

He doesn't mind. His thoughts are interrupted by warm lips pressed against his thigh and those kisses send chills down his spine. It makes his heart beat a little faster in an entirely different way than the thought of finding that person. ]

K-Komaeda-kun... ♡ [ He swallows a bit of saliva. ] No matter what I won't let you alone, and so long s I have you I have no fear of despair.

[ It's an acknowledgment of what he said before. Hiyori knows the younger Ultimate won't let it touch him. ]

STOPPP HE'S BEING GOOD NOW

[supporter]

... Such stories are always kinder than reality is.

[ He wouldn't be able to weave such fantastical stories if he didn't. They're there to allow those who read them to pretend that the world is a better place than it is. His own story is nothing so wonderful. He's not the man who wished his heart be hidden, only to be be given a second chance at life once it was returned, but one who gouged it out of his own chest and stomped on it until nothing remained. The hole in his chest will always be there though, and he'll never be the restless child that he once was.

His fingers twitch and curl in Komaeda's hair as he consoles him with kisses. He props himself up using one arm so allow him to run his fingers through the other's hair. He toys with the ponytail, gingerly starting to pull at the hair tie to undo it. ]

Who, Komaeda-kun? Tell me... Do you think would would try to kill me, or perhaps find that there's more amusement to be found in letting a person live to watch them fail? Would I be made to feel true despair?

[ He slips the band around his fingers and wiggles it onto his wrist, taking a lock of hair in his hand and letting his fingers run along it before it drops. His existence was erased, so there's no reason that she should know he exists. Yet, he's caused so much trouble by bringing himself back from the grave.

The devil is sharp and sly, but despair is something far uglier. His tone is quiet and flat, but it's not meant to dismissing Komaeda's concerns. Rather, it's what he's thought of for such a long time, his worries and fears, so many years worth of waiting. ]

I wonder if she's unpacked the little mystery I left? Ah, it really is a frightening thing to think of how much could be taken, I know...

[ In the end, that had been the point. He's a greedy man, after all, and he so he wished for both hope and despair to train their eyes on him. A little chaos can go a long way. ]